I don't even know what to post anymore.
I've been so busy...sorry readers.
To update you, I now live in Randwick, a different part of Sydney. It is nice and I am liking it.
I have been relatively inactive in the social scene due to severe lack of funding. This upsets me as I love to socialise and I love to party (cliche as it sounds).
I work every single day and all my money is basically going to surviving.
My love for fashion has faded to the point where I don't even want to look at it anymore because I know I can't afford it, and I know I can't even wear it due to my health.
My illness has seeped into my life to the point where it now dictates my wardrobe.
I find myself being covered head to toe, which not only feels limiting and constrictive, but is also terribly uncomfortable with the rising summer temperatures...
I rarely visit the beach anymore. I wouldn't dare wear a bikini.
And horrible of horribles, I can't pursue the boy I want because why the fuck would he want this sick being that is myself....I find myself staying away from him because I want the best for him. He deserves beauty.
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY LIFE!??!!
I'm sorry for this annoyingly emotional post dear bloggers, but I love this blog so much and I want you to understand why it hasn't been up to scratch of recent.
I will however make you all a nice playlist to listen to, because music is something that will continually bring a big happy smile to my face, and hopefully it will bring one to yours too.
image: Tania Shcheglova
I've been so busy...sorry readers.
To update you, I now live in Randwick, a different part of Sydney. It is nice and I am liking it.
I have been relatively inactive in the social scene due to severe lack of funding. This upsets me as I love to socialise and I love to party (cliche as it sounds).
I work every single day and all my money is basically going to surviving.
My love for fashion has faded to the point where I don't even want to look at it anymore because I know I can't afford it, and I know I can't even wear it due to my health.
My illness has seeped into my life to the point where it now dictates my wardrobe.
I find myself being covered head to toe, which not only feels limiting and constrictive, but is also terribly uncomfortable with the rising summer temperatures...
I rarely visit the beach anymore. I wouldn't dare wear a bikini.
And horrible of horribles, I can't pursue the boy I want because why the fuck would he want this sick being that is myself....I find myself staying away from him because I want the best for him. He deserves beauty.
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY LIFE!??!!
I'm sorry for this annoyingly emotional post dear bloggers, but I love this blog so much and I want you to understand why it hasn't been up to scratch of recent.
I will however make you all a nice playlist to listen to, because music is something that will continually bring a big happy smile to my face, and hopefully it will bring one to yours too.
image: Tania Shcheglova
this makes me sad :( bawwww princess
ReplyDeleteI think you need to realise most people don't even care about how 'different' your skin is. Most would be like 'oh. okay, cool. chin up and lets go to beach now already you look fine to me stress less'
aw darlin!! hopes things get better soon!
ReplyDeleteand this is a lovely choice of pic... so good!
Things will get better! ;) Believ it and believe in you. Be happy and everything will improve.
ReplyDeleteI like your blog.
kiss
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noooo darling...I am sorry to hear you are not feeling good! :(
ReplyDeleteI really hope you will get better soon and will be able to catch up on all the parties, beaches and boys you are missing!!!! big hug xxx